Saturday, July 12, 2008

My Ride wid Failure


I have seen failure up close, in different shades and flavours, angles and aspects. Of course, I tasted it. I could sense it's odour. In fact, failure was my best friend and it was suppose to become my shadow with conviction and conscience. Failure had eclipsed me in such a way that there have been so many times in the past that I had wanted to walk away from the hitting, the hurting, the haunting, the hunting and the humiliation. Every sunrise seemed like a sunset. Every event turned into hibernation. Every colour looked black. Every bubble became square. Every statement sounded like a biased and prejudiced criticism. It was so intense that even Rahman sir's melody could not cheer me up.

Life, and my own actions, pushed me into such a tight and strange corner from where there was no place to go. Yeah, I was absolutely cornered. After I reached
rock-bottom, the only direction for me was up. I am not sure whether it was a compulsive compulsion or determination. May be it was part of survival existence in the process of evolution.
So, I stopped blaming bad luck and bad timing for my actions and actually began facing my fears. I complained against myself. Earlier my finger used to point it's direction towards circumstances, situations, obligations and responsibilities, but now it has rotated it's optimistic pointer towards my abilities and opportunities. I told myself some tough truths then which made me to keep going against odds in my life in search of eternal self-actualization, rather than relative numerical success . It wasn't easy handing those moments those days. Introspective self assessment and analysis, without expectations, along with my enthusiastic passions did yield positive results.

Now, I have totally embraced the fragrance of my failure with elegance and dignity which enabled me to taste a new flavour called self-confidence. The definition, flavour and colour of my success have changed now. The new success has nothing to do with other's opinions, acknowledgment and perceptions.
I can hold the sustainable happiness with open arms. I can see brightness and life even in a dry leaf with contentment. May be we need, at least, one opportunity to face the intense, tough, naked truths at high temperatures so that we can mould ourselves to evolve better in tasting the failures. Now, I am enjoying the committed journey in tasting new flavours and sensing new aromatic fragrances. But, still, Failure is one of my best friends for influencing me with it's tough truths and naked fragrances.


Anyways, have you got your tough truths??

Cheers,
Karthik.

9 comments:

Wounded Girl.. said...

first of all,
i would like to ask u,these all r ur own creation of writing or its sombody's else thoughts??

coz i indeed appreciate ur writing skill and all these topics on which u wrote such wonderful articles,n shared ur great knowledge...i'm impressed by ur blog Mahesh.....i liked it in all the posible way...

don't mind if wrote something wrong,as i'm so new in this site....Take care,worth spending time upon ur blog...keep writing,keep blogging...
with regards
--Khushi--

MAHESH KUMAR KALAL said...

hi kushi...

its kushi to meet kushi ...
thanks for ur time n feedback...
though u hav d liberty to doubt abt my blog....all i can say is that d very purpose of dis blog is to let my bursting thoughts hidden in my perceptions to flush out.....
i write for myself....
Now i would like to take d liberty of asking you what made u so wounded in life??.....
u can come out freely....
write to me in case u want to...
i may not solve ur probs but i can listen atleast n try to empathise wid u...

maheshsoftguy@gmail.com

.♥♥WǾüи∂êÐ gïяℓ♥♥ said...

hmm,well my name's spelling is KHUSHI,not kushi...h0pe u call me correctly...hihihi

thats great u utilise ur time in many g0od ways where one is writing stuff,me too of same kind....

anyways,well ur curiousilty is as usual coz my ID is like ppl often used to ask..why u wounded,whts wrong,whts happend?? n I'm tired of replying d0st...in one word,i don't like discl0sing my matter,sharing my pains i don't like....so forget it...

but one again,I really like ur blog,though its not possible I post my views on every p0st,but I read many of ur blog p0st n all r appreciable,My time has spent on a right place when I'm on ur blog...keep thinking n sharing best of experience....

Thank-Y0u! :)
--Khushi--

kallakuri.bhargavi said...

hi,
even i feel the samething abt the words"badluck","bad timing".these words are used either for escaping from the fact that they dint try hard.its better when these words are used for comforting someone who really tried enough.i say LUCK ALWAYS FAVOURS HARD WORK and i beleve it..one should" work hard in a right way" to achieve success.
oh!!my comment sounds like another blog!!! haha

kallakuri.bhargavi said...

hi,
even i feel the samething abt the words"badluck","bad timing".these words are used either for escaping from the fact that they dint try hard.its better when these words are used for comforting someone who really tried enough.i say LUCK ALWAYS FAVOURS HARD WORK and i beleve it.thats the tough truth i have known in my life.one should" work hard in a right way" to achieve success.
oh!!my comment sounds like another blog!!! haha

Anonymous said...

Who is this Karthik ??

Pappu

mAhEsH KaLaAL said...

hi pappu...

Karthik is a just a character in my thoughts through whom i like to communicate to this world . Personally, I like the name karthik very much. To me , Karthik is a normal and simple guy who want to stand opposite to all isms of this world and tries to live life in his own way and on his own terms. Of course, I may end up writing a book on him.

mAhEsH KaLaAL said...

Hey pappu,

check my reply to ur comments on developmentism.
:)

Shilpa said...

See,it happens with everyone and this is how we grow up. But there are only few persons out there who actually learn from their failures. and if you are one of these then obviously its good for you.however, it was a great post and you have a great ability to play with words to get your thoughts understood by everyone...cheers for that!!!